January 31, 2012 § Leave a comment
Not a single word was said, no final kiss to seal any sin, I had no idea of the state we were in.
I know I have a fickle heart, and a bitterness, and a wandering eye and heaviness in my head. But don’t you remember? …you loved me before.
January 16, 2012 § Leave a comment
January 14, 2012 § Leave a comment
I can’t spend forever waiting for you to be a better person, I won’t put my happiness on the back burner for us to be together. At one time in my life, I couldn’t imagine my life without you, now I find it hard to see where you would properly fit into it. I know in my heart that I’ll always care about you, and maybe being friends is something we could do in a few months from now, but I doubt that you can ever be who I need in my life. Mood song : “Never say never”
September 5, 2011 § Leave a comment
Every single human being needs a force. Something to keep them headed in the direction their life is mean to go. Where this force and or notion steams from I am not sure yet, but I do believe that everyone has it. Whether it be religion, music, art, or family; there is something for everyone. Mine has and always will be love. Those pure moments of unselfish connection between one human and another, I know I’ve talked about this before, but I find it important that when these moments of clarity hit me to capture some of my emotion into something psychical I can come back to on a rainy day. This world has so many beautiful parts that it can be hard to pick just one, but for me I can only see one answer. All my life, be it what it has been. The only thing that helps me get through a day is the vision of what I want my life to be, the love I wish to have, and the friends and family I will eventually share more of my life memories with. That at the end of my life I will be proud and happy of what I’ve accomplished and how I got there, for I will know that I lived every moment with the purest of intentions and that love was never something my life was missing. Love for life, for art, for family, for myself, and for the world as a whole.
August 10, 2011 § Leave a comment
When I imagine the life I would want for myself, it’s unfortunately very different from the one I’ve been given. It’s upsetting to
imagine my life without becoming a parent. This is because throughout my childhood I was very attached to my mother, and our relationship had the time and possibility to strengthen and grow, because for my first seven years of life I was an only child. Those years are as fresh as they ever were and I imagine I will hold onto them forever. My mother played a large role in my life, because she has always held a large space in my heart. This to me is a special gift, one I was hoping so dearly to share with a child of my own, to have half of me and half of the man I love so very much, rapped up in one. To feel that same kind of connection with every tender moment shared with her. I truly believe that’s what life is all about. It’s the days that are shared,connected to another soul through our emotions and memories. What else can life offer other than love? What else in life could ever possibly mean more then pure moments of sunshine filled pleasure? Nothing in my mind. For one day people disappear; however, memories do not. Special little moments in time forever locked away, close to the heart of someone you loved.